So I Said... | And THEN I Said...
As I mentioned a week ago, I wanted to start posting some of my old notes (and new comments to those notes) from a journal writing class I took in college (I figured I was always writing in diaries since I was 8, so...) Today seemed like a good day to start. MAN! I don't know what was in the air, but some really amazing Friends posts out there today. I've been on the web for some 3 hours just commenting and replying to all these great journals today!
As always, notes & quotes based upon a class designed by Tristine Rainer.
The 4 Basic Journal Devices
1-- Catharsis (releasing emotions and thereby letting go of pent up tension and stress)
2-- Description (detailing the experience of the senses)
3-- Free-Intuitive (letting the subconscious mind have it's 2 cents)
4-- Reflection (pondering the significance of one's thoughts and reactions to things)
Today, we'll tackle CATHARSIS.
Though cathartic writing seems an obvious device for journaling, it is surprising how many people fail to take advantage of the opportunity offered for emotional purgation because they think of their journal as a PRODUCT rather than as a process. And if they use the journal for purging strong emotions through writing, the product itself may not be very "pretty."
However, the importance of the diary or journal is not as a product-- a point I can't repeat too often!-- bu in the life that is freed from excessive anger, confusion, and grief. Putting the pain in the diary keeps it from destroying the life within a person. The life of one liberated from such destructive emotions is the TRUE "product" of this purgative process.
In keeping with this process, cathartic writing may not represent reality fairly at all. It uses exaggerations and distortions because realistic writing cannot fully express the amount of emotion behind the words. Intimate journals are characterized by spots of intense emotion, that which is created when we find ourselves unable to suppress our feelings. Many diarists find they need to allow an emotional, spontaneous, cathartic expression before they can understand or transform it through any other journalistic device."
So, I suppose that means that the first rule of better journal writing is, "Don't be afraid to be emotinal!"
We are all creatures of feeling, and must suppress ourselves at school and work, with the family, and even with friends in daily life. The journal is one place where one can let go of the "bounded emotional self." Naturally, any postings of such (especially if they pertain to another person!) can be controversial, but we can always post "privately" when this possibility arises (as I often do.)
Week One Challenge: To write a blatently cathartic journal entry in the next week. Life's a bitch, so I'm guessing most of us can find SOMETHING to bitch about. What fun! Homework where you get to whine, moan, and generally indulge those less "pretty" feelings... on purpose. It feels so naughty! Some people on my Friend's list have already done this today, in fact-- and I was really impressed with the honesty and emotionality of these posts.
Challege Factor: To write about our bad emotions even though it's embarrassing. I can't tell you how many times I read a wonderfully cathartic post by someone only to hear them apologize for it. (And I must confess, I have caught myself doing the same.) But LiveJournal is unique in it's ability to show how many of our Friends can RELATE to these sorts of things. Also, we must remember that emotional expression compells and draws us in with it's inherant DRAMA. We love to hear that our fellow human beings go a little crazy, just like we do, on occasion! And, consider too-- the reading of the crazed "rant" lends a little color to a journal often otherwise bland in it's repeated dry reportings.
We are taught that it's childish and selfish to allow negative feelings to come forward. Of course giving them free reign can cause all sorts of problems-- but this is why the writing of them can be so freeing, because it's ultimately so HARMLESS. (So long as you aren't bitching about someone who can read it, that is!) And, really, until we know HOW we feel, how can we process an emotion to get over it? Think about this...
Another personal note here: Last year I took a psychological test (a real, professionally evaluated one) on emotional processing abilities, and I was really high in all 4 major categories but one-- the ability to accept my emotions without SHAME. This was an eye opener for me. It makes sense to feel guilt or shame for what we DO based upon bad feelings, but it really is silly to chastise ourselves for having bad feelings in the first place! Yet I have done this all my life-- and it has contributed significantly to depressive episodes and social anxiety disorders. Give yourself a break and say it's okay to feel bad sometimes. I'm trying to!
So, sometime this week, post a really emotional entry. Label it "Cathartic Journal Entry" or some such thing so I, or anyone else who is doing this, can see your effort to really let go all the way in the name of expanded writing skills.
- Where I Was Today:rainy Blackbird Pond
- I'm Feeling:
ready to go
- I'm Hearing:Depeche Mode trance mixes


Comments
Interesting perspective - letting the journal be a process rather than only a series of products.
This would be a challenge for a 3, I dare say! I must confess that writing this challenge I wondered if you would be up for it, for you are so prone to expressing yourself with such care!
Journal as process not product-- VERY interesting perspective! Heh...
But yeah, I recognize its value. It's kindof scary, though. I've a habit of being more controlled in the presentation of my imperfections -- but hey, at least I can express them at all!
I'm going to post this, and then turn in myself-- it's nearly 3am here. *yawns*
I think I may have a perspective to offer you that may ease the "shame" factor of allowing yourself to express unpretty feelings and thoughts... Not only is it healthy and good for you, but other people are REASSURED when they see paragons of virtues confess to being human. Somehow, that makes them more-- real, and endearing. It closes the distance gap, and allows for more potential intimacy.
Perfect people are perfectly intimidating and unapproachable, remember!
& Goedemorgen! =)